Here’s The Deal…

Hi, Lovely Souls. So, this post isn’t going to be one of good news, but one of self-reflection. Siting down? Good. This might be a long one.

As you all know, or may not know for my new subscribers, I have been struggling this year as a writer. Badly. So badly to the point where both my soul and my body are just tired. Drained. Spent. Done. I was hopeful that I would have another crazy, writing and publishing year, but that has not been the case.

When I published LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL, I was proud of myself. The work I had invested in myself and that story… was my highest. When I wrote that short for Shay Spivey’s Shades of BWWM Collection, I felt a little bit of myself coming back.

But as I sit here typing this for you, and for myself, I am ashamed. I am embarrassed. I feel like a failure.  This is me being honest- as honest as I possibly can.

There is a good fragment in all of this. I had been doing tons of reading. From Rachel Jonas, to KC Connor, to Siera London, Danielle James (the erotica, taboo queen), and Carmel Rhodes…. all of this beautiful, talented souls have taught me something about writing and falling in love with reading again. That’s what I have missed and needed this year, and every time I sat down to write, nothing would work. Now, I see why.

Reading and seeing how other craft stories was my key to unlock myself. I was so focused on writing that I neglected the main side of myself that needed to be restored.

So, looking forward, I am no longer a failure or guilt-tripping myself because I needed this year to myself, to restore myself, and to fall in love with reading again. Another thing I realize is that maybe romance isn’t what I need to be writing right now.  Yes, my brand is a Romantic Realism Author, and that will not change. But right now, I need to change genres. I need to shift my focus, so I can fall back in love with writing romance again. When the time is right for romance and I to connect, we shall.

I’ll continue to read more. I shall. I have missed it. Lending a hand where I can to those authors who I share a friendship and a sistership with… is very important to me. It’s what my goal is for the rest of 2018, while I continue to find me again. Something that I had a breakthrough about last night while on the phone with my SO is this: I’ve been attempting to write in the wrong genre. Romance isn’t home right now, at least not for writing. So, I’ll try something different in 2019.

Stranger Things has been teaching me a lot, too. (I adore that show!) 

So, there it is, lovely souls. Here’s to slowly finding me again.

Keep flying high,

Angel Mystique x 

 

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Writing Woes + More…

 

Hi, lovely souls.

I know I have been quiet on here, and there is a reason. I’ve been struggling finding my flow again as a writer. I’ve been reading more recently, finding my love for romance novels again (paperbacks, not on my Kindle). I have missed holding a book in my hands and feeling the pages against my fingertips. So, that’s progress.

As much as I am afraid to admit, I am writing again. Today, I am giving myself permission to finally let go of my writing insecurities and just feel- as my literal muse told me the other day. Speaking of muses, this story has been long overdue. And what better way that to focus on me and writing for myself than with a project that has been on my mind for almost six years now.

This… is going to be quite the journey, but today, I am releasing all inhibitions and getting back to what I love: writing and writing romances and love stories. 

I’ll keep you updated on my progress. I promise 😉

How are things in your writing life and personal life? Chat with me. Let’s share stories and help each other grow.

Keep flying high,

Angel Mystique x

 

I Never Want To Be “THAT” Author…

Hi, lovely souls.

Allow me to be honest, open, and raw for a few minutes. At the title states: I truly never, ever want to be that author. You know, the author that just says she’s going to put out stories and then, the stories never come? Or the author who reveals characters and blurbs only to have them pushed back and they come out years down the line? I am trying my hardest to never be that author.

As some of you know, I’ve already pushed back one series and ultimately scratched the series from my line-up. Or the series title may change. I’m not sure.

But, this year… has been a year of tiny writing days yet no completion. And that frustrates me. Which is why, today, that stops. Seriously. For the sake of my own sanity and the people behind the scenes of my life that are counting on me, I refuse to not complete a book this month. 

I know… 8 days seems to be a bit of a stretch, but I did complete a book last year in the exact time frame. So, I fully believe that I can do it again, if not sooner.

I won’t come on here again until I have a few completed works under my belt. I never want to be the ‘all talk, no action, nothing-to-show-for-it’ writer.

And I won’t be.

Here’s the flying high, onward and upwards, and to completed stories.

How’re you all doing?

Cheers!