Here’s The Deal…

Hi, Lovely Souls. So, this post isn’t going to be one of good news, but one of self-reflection. Siting down? Good. This might be a long one.

As you all know, or may not know for my new subscribers, I have been struggling this year as a writer. Badly. So badly to the point where both my soul and my body are just tired. Drained. Spent. Done. I was hopeful that I would have another crazy, writing and publishing year, but that has not been the case.

When I published LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL, I was proud of myself. The work I had invested in myself and that story… was my highest. When I wrote that short for Shay Spivey’s Shades of BWWM Collection, I felt a little bit of myself coming back.

But as I sit here typing this for you, and for myself, I am ashamed. I am embarrassed. I feel like a failure.  This is me being honest- as honest as I possibly can.

There is a good fragment in all of this. I had been doing tons of reading. From Rachel Jonas, to KC Connor, to Siera London, Danielle James (the erotica, taboo queen), and Carmel Rhodes…. all of this beautiful, talented souls have taught me something about writing and falling in love with reading again. That’s what I have missed and needed this year, and every time I sat down to write, nothing would work. Now, I see why.

Reading and seeing how other craft stories was my key to unlock myself. I was so focused on writing that I neglected the main side of myself that needed to be restored.

So, looking forward, I am no longer a failure or guilt-tripping myself because I needed this year to myself, to restore myself, and to fall in love with reading again. Another thing I realize is that maybe romance isn’t what I need to be writing right now.  Yes, my brand is a Romantic Realism Author, and that will not change. But right now, I need to change genres. I need to shift my focus, so I can fall back in love with writing romance again. When the time is right for romance and I to connect, we shall.

I’ll continue to read more. I shall. I have missed it. Lending a hand where I can to those authors who I share a friendship and a sistership with… is very important to me. It’s what my goal is for the rest of 2018, while I continue to find me again. Something that I had a breakthrough about last night while on the phone with my SO is this: I’ve been attempting to write in the wrong genre. Romance isn’t home right now, at least not for writing. So, I’ll try something different in 2019.

Stranger Things has been teaching me a lot, too. (I adore that show!) 

So, there it is, lovely souls. Here’s to slowly finding me again.

Keep flying high,

Angel Mystique x 

 

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Writing Woes + More…

 

Hi, lovely souls.

I know I have been quiet on here, and there is a reason. I’ve been struggling finding my flow again as a writer. I’ve been reading more recently, finding my love for romance novels again (paperbacks, not on my Kindle). I have missed holding a book in my hands and feeling the pages against my fingertips. So, that’s progress.

As much as I am afraid to admit, I am writing again. Today, I am giving myself permission to finally let go of my writing insecurities and just feel- as my literal muse told me the other day. Speaking of muses, this story has been long overdue. And what better way that to focus on me and writing for myself than with a project that has been on my mind for almost six years now.

This… is going to be quite the journey, but today, I am releasing all inhibitions and getting back to what I love: writing and writing romances and love stories. 

I’ll keep you updated on my progress. I promise 😉

How are things in your writing life and personal life? Chat with me. Let’s share stories and help each other grow.

Keep flying high,

Angel Mystique x

 

40,063 words, 27 Days….

Lovely souls!!!

I have news! Great news! WONDERFUL, SPECTACULAR NEWS, EVEN. During October 2017, not only did I decide to take a hiatus from social media (which began 22 September 2017), but I decided I would use the time away to focus on my next writing project. A little history, before I dive into my good news and the outcome of my hiatus.

I picked up a pen when I was eight years young, I picked up and pencil and began writing. I wrote 300 plus pages of a novel that is no longer in my possession and hasn’t been for ages. (That story, along with countless others are no longer in my possession, due to them being stolen and due to a massive moment when my old USB drive decided to erase all of my work, plus tons of character inspiration from it.) 

 

From that day forward, I knew writing was my calling. This year alone, I have written roughly 106,063 words!!!! In five months. January (Amaze Me), February (Trust Me), May (Sleep Sweetly), June (Sweet Dreams: A Sleep Sweetly Short), a couple of short pieces of my Wattpad account, and now…..

MY VERY FIRST NOVEL: 40,063 WORDS!!!! 

The longest piece I have written this year, let alone EVER.

I’m super proud of this accomplishment as it has been a dream of mine since I picked up that pencil!

I cannot end this blog post without thanking my two Alpha Readers, Critique Partners, and cheerleaders. My boyfriend and author Cedric N. Floyd, along with my literary big sister Raven St. Pierre. You two pushed me when I was ready to throw in the towel and accept that this story was only meant to be 20,000 words. But talking things out and taking a couple of days here and there to breathe… pushed to me this result: my very first novel and 40,063 words. I owe you both so much! Thank you. from the bottom of my heart, all the way to the top…. THANK YOU. 

 

I’ll keep you posted on my progress, lovely souls.

After my mandatory three-week writing hiatus, I plan to get back to plotting a new story, which I will begin writing in January of 2018. I might do the same self-challenge. WriMo. We shall see. If it worked once, it can work twice, right?

 

Until next time!

 

It’s happening.

Lovely souls,

I think this needs a slight explanation. I’m sure more of you all were excited about the massive WIP list for me, and I was also. Things happen. Life happens. So, with that said, as of now, my SLEEP SWEETLY SERIES is complete. You have SLEEP SWEETLY & the side short, technically Book 2.

I thought I could write all the things and be ‘superwoman’. I quickly found out that is NOT the case. As of today, until probably next year, I’m taking a much-needed break from writing, as well as social media.

Releasing 4 stories within my first year of being a published author, permanently axing two story ideas isn’t going to keep me down for too long. Just a few months.

February 2018 you will receive my next to-be-published work. Hopefully, this time will be a time of reflection, rest, rejuvenation, and I’ll be stronger than I was this year.

I know most writers take a much longer break than I am taking. I know some need shorter to recoup.

You may see some posts about work of other author friend’s of mine. So, my website will be active. I just won’t be updating you personally.

At any rate, I will be thinking of you. I hope you will be thinking of and praying for me.

Until next time…

Keep flying high,

Angel Mystique x